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Wakker?!

10 September 2024

Er wil iets van mijn Hart. Iets rauw, iets ruw, iets waar ik zelf van schrik. Zo diep. Zo donker. En plots aan mijn oppervlakte. Om gezien te worden. Door mijn Zelf. Aangepord, aangeraakt, gepriemd, door wat bij anderen aan hun oppervlakte getoond wordt.

radicalisering
roepen
tieren
absolute waarheid
over perversiteit
zonder ervaring
zonder verbinding
alleen maar pijn
hun pijn
onbewust
dualiteit

pijn in mijn hart
in mijn Zijn
keelpijn
gewurgd
gedood
doodgezwegen
genegeerd
verpletterd
verpulverd
mijn stem
doet er niet toe
mijn woorden
geen waar(de)heid
voor hen

rauw
rouw
om tijden
lang vervlogen
om leed
nooit uitgesproken
verdrongen pijn
begraven
bedolven
vergeten
uitgeveegde
geschiedenis

wil Nu
gezien Zijn
wil Nu
ge-Heel-en
ver-één-igd
één-voudig
in ons Allen
Te-Saam
Samen
Leven

kijken
naar elkaar
Zien
van elkaar
gedeelde
pijn is
ge-Heel-de
pijn

voorbij
afscheiding
voorbij
afwijzing
voorbij
veroordeling
voorbij
de pijn

voor beide
heling
voor beide
verbinding
voor beide
Leven
voor beide
Liefde
voor beide
Samen Zijn

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